the pie in the face is a moment in the story

"In physical theatre training, students spend weeks learning the precision of the fall ~ how to trip, tumble and recover...

Learning how to fall isn’t just about the fall. It’s a way to experience a larger movement, a flow. When things don’t go our way, we should remember that the pie in the face is a moment in the story. In story structure, the climax continues into the next action. Things don’t end where we think they should or begin just because we say so. Instead there’s a natural ebb. Easy to say and hard to practice, the principles of how to fall (and make others laugh while we’re at it) teach us to see the larger story of life. There is a saying that the body never forgets. When we engage physically (like dancing, falling in love, writing) we change. We remember. It is in our bones. 

The lesson in the end is about learning how to give in.  If you brace yourself while tumbling, you may hurt yourself. But if you lean in, over time you’ll discover rhythm, ease, maybe even grace."

fire drill

Two weeks ago my neighbor's apartment caught fire.  The water from putting out her fire invaded my apartment across the hall and promptly flooded my walk in closet and entry way.  I've spent the passing weeks fighting with my landlord and cleaning up the damage. The silver lining of this whole situation has been that it's forced me to sit face to face with my hoarding habits. I own more clothing, shoes, etc than any one person could ever need.

Yes. I have bitched and moaned plenty about this very thing. But it took a literal fire to light a figurative flame under my butt. I've thrown out 6 bags of "stuff" and sold three bags of clothing.  Sadly I find I still have more THINGS than I need. Considering that I don't wear half of what I own I'm going to push forward with purging more from my life. 

The only regret I have felt so far has been when selling my clothes. The buyer was very sweet but made a point to mention that everything I was selling was "gold" and "so on trend". LISTEN!! I bought these things because I like them. The fact of the matter is I just don't wear it. If I don't wear it then it has to go. Period. 

My current closet is full of items I love in theory but don't wear. My dream closet is full of timeless classics and a few special pieces that I can mix and match. I highly doubt my dream closet can be achieved over night but I think I'm on my way.

current situation

My apartment was damaged in a fire caused by my neighbor. Although inconvenient I have found "homelessness" to be quite fun. My dog is fine. 

Updates on my Mother's health are as follows: her health is not good enough to qualify for the treatment that would eradicate the Hep C from her system. She is now on a wait list for a liver transplant. This will probably take years. 

With everything that is happening I still find myself walking around with a large smile on my face. 

When things start to feel out of control I simply lean into it. 

Writing has been slow in coming. I start to write and after struggling to get a good sentence or two I get frustrated and stop. A friend gave me the Artist's Way as a way to potentially unblock myself. 

be you

Go now, and live.

Experience. Dream. Risk. Close your eyes and jump. Enjoy the freefall. Choose exhilaration over comfort. Choose magic over predictability. Choose potential over safety. Wake up to the magic of everyday life. Make friends with your intuition. Trust your gut. Discover the beauty of uncertainty. Know yourself fully before you make promises to another. Make millions of mistakes so that you will know how to choose what you really need. Know when to hold on and when to let go. Love hard and often and without reservation. Seek knowledge. Open yourself up to possibility. Keep your heart open, your head high and your spirit free. Embrace your darkness along with your light. Be wrong every once in a while, and don't be afraid to admit it. Awaken to the brilliance in ordinary moments. Tell the truth about yourself no matter what the cost. Own your reality without apology. See goodness in the world. Be Bold. Be Fierce. Be Grateful. Be Wild, Crazy and Gloriously Free. Be you.

Go now, and live.

-Jeanette LeBlanc

weekly horoscope: Pisces

PISCES

Feb. 19-March 20

Practice fearlessness, Pisces. You are so capable, but you need to be daring enough to try things out so you can prove that to yourself. Make plans and execute them thoughtfully this week. Rely on yourself and you will learn what you need to about your strengths and what needs greater attention.

weekly horoscope: Pisces

PISCES

Feb. 19-March 20

Feel good about yourself, Pisces. You’ve worked hella hard to get to this point, and there is so much potential in front of you, too. Don’t be so shy that you dumb down your awesomeness. Being humble doesn’t mean denying your strengths! Enjoy the flow for as long as it’s going your way.